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21km away from a dream

I am right now 21km away from a dream, a goal that I set for myself way back in fridgid November. The goal was to participate and run in a half-marathon. I am just over two weeks from this goal and I am, in short scared shitless.

I have done what I could. Trained properly, listened to my body and the limits it has showed me but still I am horrified that I will once again be plagued with injuries and will hobbile not run across that finish line.

Those who know me know that I have become obbessed with physical fitness, and running but what those people don’t know is that running this race is consuming every thought of every moment of my little life.

Even my subconsious mind is affraid, I have nightmares of not finishing the race, or finishing weak, or of failing to show up at all. This fear I have now come to realize is the only barrier between my goal of completeing the run in less than 2 and a half hours and to failing.

I am conusmed with two numbers, the 21km that I must run and my goal time of 2 hours 30minuties. Anything more than that goal will be utter and complete dissapointment.

So now I wait.

I wait for that 7am run, and to see which part of me will win….

 

My subconscious fears or my determination to kick the shit out of that 21km and it’s 2hour30min goal.

 

Oink, Oink my friends……

 

Orgninal post located at: https://jbingham82.wordpress.com

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April 13, 2009 Posted by | Motivation | , , , , | Leave a comment